The Holidays are just about here

and I have no spirit for it.  It will be the first of holidays that my mom wont be here.  I just dont know how to get through it, and still be happy and excited for my childrens sake.  Every night I lay in bed and cry my heart out.  When will the pain go away? Or will it ever?  Thanks for being here for me buddies!!  HUGS

9 Comments so far

  1. squiggly @ November 20th, 2007

    I know how you feel. I lost my mom when I was 19 to cancer. It’s been 14 years now. The pain does lessen. You’ll never forget her and the holidays won’t be the same. However, the way you approach the holidays will change and you’ll be happy again. I know the first few holidays were hard for me. I cried all the time. I still do at times. My advice is to remember the good holiday memories that you had with your mother. Share them with your children and your family. Remember that she would want you all to be happy and that she is smiling on you. She may not be here in a physical sense but she is in your heart. If I could, I’d give you a huge hug. Cry all you need to and remember things do get better. The “firsts” are hard. You’ll get through. If you need to talk, please feel free to contact me. I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers.

  2. Lori @ November 20th, 2007

    Hugs to you

    I know its tough but it will get easier as time goes on.

    Children have a way of helping us to deal with so much.
    Embrace them and all the love that they have to share.

    More hugs
    Lori

  3. Beebee @ November 20th, 2007

    I’m sorry you won’t have your mom for thanksgiving. That is really sad, but hopefully you will be able to share a little joy with your children. Hope you have a good holiday.

  4. twintluv99 @ November 20th, 2007

    So sorry that you ahve to be going thru this, my heart goes out to youa nd all that have to deal with the absence of loved onse when the holidays are so focused on family (my fiance’s mom passed away last year and it is hard on him as well!). Your kids will bring you joy hopefully!!! I hope you ahev a wonderful holiday!!!

  5. nana4 @ November 21st, 2007

    I know what you are going through. The holidays are hard for me without my dad and he has been gone for 9 years. It does get a little easier.You will always miss them, but focus on your good memories.
    Have a good one!

  6. JustJane47 @ November 21st, 2007

    Oh Rachael, big big hugs for you my friend. My heart breaks when I read your blog. I lost my mother 3 years ago and I do feel your pain. They say time heals, but I agree with Bette Jo, embrace your children. They are amazing at helping us through difficult times. Give lots of hugs and cherrish the Christmas’s you had with your mom. Your heavy in my heart right now Rachael, please take care.

  7. tambo @ November 21st, 2007

    My heart goes out to you. Everyday is so difficult when we lose a loved one. Holidays are an extra challenge especially when this just happened. You will find joy again someday. It’s okay to grieve, you need to grieve. Your kids probably understand why you’re sad.

    Tammy

  8. kamaperry @ November 21st, 2007

    I’m so sorry, been counting my blessings that I still have mine. Lots of hugs to you!

  9. Ashleymf22 @ December 3rd, 2007

    Hi, I was just looking through old blogs and saw yours about your mom and hoildays. I know how you feel. I hate the thought of x-mas it was my moms fav. My sister and I have had many talks these past few weeks about how it is going to suck. Hope you are doing well and have a good week!!!

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